It’s awful to wake up day after day and see life staring at you. Am I to blame that I don’t have as much strength as you? Ain’t like some who don’t want to kindly talk, ask for advice and be hugged for an inner calmness. I’m just the other way around. I need people when I’m down, no smile on my face and heck if I know…. Wish I had not met you, you and you, it would have been easier. Wish I could start all over again, a new life, new beginning. I know what I wanna do, but ain’t sure I’m able to for there are many things involved.

Now...Should I choose a pleasurable future that is certain to be or go with the flow, after receiving a piece of advice from mature individuals? If I were to decide upon the second option then I would remain with the unknown (what if?) and the possibility of not liking “it”.

And I regret so many things! ~sigh~ I regret for not being able to say what I truly wanna shout and do actions taken from nameless thoughts. Why? Cause I feel like to some questions won’t be given the same affective answers like a long time ago in the past. “Dwelling into the past”…yeah… often. How can I escape it? Easy: revive its good parts. But the query remains…how?



Sunday, 22 October 2006

20:09:29